When I spoke those words, I didn't know how hot the fire would get for me personally! It was easy to talk about it - much more difficult to endure it! The Word says that teachers will be judged more harshly. This is right and true. We have no right to teach it if we are unwilling to walk it out.
The flames heated up this week, and the aroma of burning flesh was a stench. There was some groaning and tears as the Spirit pried my clenched fingers off the things I had refused to let go of. I recalled Mark Buchanan's words: "[He is] now forming in you - sometimes by hammer-blows, grapplings and hip-wrenchings - the image of Christ." Jacob had a limp when the wrestling was over. I'm not sure, but I think I may have one too. But the fifty days are not yet completed - so if I'm not limping yet, Abba, please complete the work so that I am fully sifted and truly ready to be a worthy offering waved before you at Shavu'ot. I want the fullness of the outpouring of Your Spirit, and the likeness of Your image; but I know I'm asking for the flames to get hotter still, and the flesh to be not wounded, but dead!